so lets see, what happened since last time... a lot of stuf, but today is not the day to tell everything. I will leave ít for later, when i have time and in a good mood.

At the moment I'm home again in Sweden, Löddeköpinge, with my parents and brother and of course my little doggii! I've missed them all a lot, and also all my friends here. I was really nice to come home if you see it that way, that you can meet family and friend. But why does it not feel okey?

I left Alanya this Saturday, 11 o'clock to go to Antalya and the airport. First a hard goodbye the day before at steak and salamon, a few guides came to say goodbye, some didn't. I still missed two very important persons at this event, who chosed not to show up! It really hurted, I don't think they really understand how dissapointed I was when I left Alanya without even I sign from any of them. But theres nothing to do about that now.

Before we took of from Alanya, we had to say goodbye to some at office, I went into the bus as fast as I could, cuz it was hard enough to come there and take a last goodbye. When the bus passed the last tunnel out from alanya, tears where fallin.

It was two very ruff and strange hours, to the airport. I got a feeling that I can't explain with words. It was a relief to leave, and I accutally thought it would be nice to come home. But in the same way, this was almost the hardest thing I ever done. I've never felt this kind of emptyness before, I didn't want to leave my life, friends, work and everything that that includes. This was my life now, and in only a couple of hours I've had packed all my life into a suitcase to go back again.

Me and Emily left the departurehall, with our eyes fulled of tears! When I huged Jenny and Amelie,  I didn't want to let it go! I wanted to stay!!!!

When I finally were in my seat in the plane, everything was falling to place, and it was now I really realized that I've left everything, to start something new, somewhere else in the world. then my head kept on spinning, with a lot of thoughts!!


Even if I had a GREAT day today, togheter with my family and Evelina(my sweetheart) and some other friends. It still feels like something's missing. And I know what it is, it's all you guys my turkeylovers!

If I could i would like to give you all a BIG hug! but as I can't do it by my self, I will give you one from here! I hope everybody are fine and that you keep up the good work. You are the best, don't forget that! I will always love you guys!!!

So, I just felt that I had to get this out, so excuse my english and also the sentences which can be a little confusing! Now I have to try to get some sleep! 

Take care everybody!!

With love
Nathalie<3